November 1, 2006 at 5:05 pm
Sick of me?
Side Note @ 12.08pm, 2 Nov: Will be @ home for the rest of the day, having a bad running nose 
While I’m surfing online last night, I suddenly think about a lot of things in the past. I realize that I have change. I hope this changes is something good. At least for a new beginning. I bet it is.
I use to be a girl who simply get angry without reason. I use to do whatever I want just because I feel happy with it. Not knowing about what others think or feel. Whether I hurt them or not I never care. I’m evil, sarcastic, annoying, talkative, straight forward and most of all materialistic! …Am I?
I’m a sensitive girl and not a caring person but when I feel something is important, I’ll get my own way! I’m impossible because my mood swings are scary and while I give a lot, being a bit of a victim, I expect a lot back.
I loath feeling like someone is taking advantage of me but to make matters worse, I’m more likely to seethe than be straight with them…
Today’s me is different, I no longer get angry just because of small matter. I don’t simply hit the cat on the road with a stone. I don’t bit the dog next door in our neighborhood. In fact, they no longer have one.
Last time, whenever my bos ask me to do work, I will give them a lot of reason. Now, whatever my bosses told me to do, I will it do as good as I can. I don’t even dare to utter a word…
If my family ask me to do housework, I will say “laterlah” end up never do anything. But today me will finish everything without even being ask. I wash the cloth, do the cooking, iron the cloth, wash the toilet bowl, everything perfectly!
After all this, instead of feeling hesitate to do it, I feel unwillingly happy after the process. I feel a sudden smile within myself. I realize one thing, I have grown up to be more mature.
I understand how others feel if I hurt them, I do not want those whom I care being hurt. I don’t mind however how bad, things get into me. At least I see the smile in you, I feel the day is much more brighter then the usual one.
Most of all, I have got an angel’s heart. Love me or not, its up to you. Sick of me? Then kindly buzz off !
wow, it almost sounds like you’re turning into a perfect wife… hmm…. Nah.
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