January 27, 2007 at 11:00 pm

That angelic gal ~ Part 4

Read Part 1 Here , Read Part 2 Here , Read Part 3 Here ~ ‘Cloud. do you think there are people like that?’ Sure. of course. that is the real world.’ ‘Why must guys like pretty girls?’

I was momentarily taken aback by a sudden question. I asked myself and the answer that came up doesn’t seemed too good. ‘Because human like to see pretty things? I mean you would like to see good looking guys too right?’

‘But good-looking guys don’t give me security. That’s why I don’t like good-looking guys.’ My heart screamed another point of victory; I am not good looking - I am decent looking, the second closest to handsome.

Even though she never really answered my question, but I love her reply. ‘What about you Cloud? Do you like pretty girls too?’ THIS KIND of question AGAIN? If I said yes, I will appear **** shallow. If I say no I am lying to myself.

Gawd! I need the best of both world answer. ‘Me?’ I was trying to buy time as she nodded her head almost immediately. ‘Well. I think I prefer. cute girls like. you!’

My system was undergoing this contained stress and it is making me go nuts every time she throws questions like these to stumble me. She blushed and tapped my head lightly. Oh man, I think I am not gonna wash my hair today.

‘Don’t be silly.’ I know that sentence was just to cover her embarrassment, just like me laughing whenever I made mushy remarks. I decided to sent her home by bus as I think this is the very least what a guy should do.

We boarded the bus, the same bus 171 where we always take - We recognized the bus driver. ‘Boy ar. not bad ar. get to know her liao.last time you both dunno each other wan right?’

It was the bus driver and I nodded in faintly agreement with him and smiled my way through, while she giggled uncontrollably. We choose a seat at the far back and sat down ‘This driver is always very chatty, don’t bother about him.

I always seen him talking to other passengers.’ She shaped a smile from her lips. Suddenly, she took the bus tickets I was holding. Look away first!’ I did as I was told and after five minutes she hold my waist and put her fist onto my hands.

Am I in heaven? I have nothing to give you, so I made this two heart myself. One for you, one for me.’ I looked at her origami made from bus tickets and wondered whether I should do something similar.

I appreciate her effort though - I thanked her. Finally her stop arrived and she had to align. We got down and I insisted in sending her all the way till her block. It’s ok.

It’s not good if I am being seen by my neighbors with a guy so late at night you know.’ I nodded and finally relented. Well, every date has to part eventually right? I watched her fade into her estate and until I caught zero glimpse of her.

I am in LOVE with TODAY. For the next few months, we chatted everyday and each time I felt that I am slipping into this pit of angelic darkness called love.

She told me she couldn’t go out very often as her guardian is very strict - finally she is talking more about herself. Her parents are overseas working, leaving her all alone, which contribute reasons for her character.

I know she longs for my company like I longs for hers. We are like one in-separate-able pair of best friend. Whatever problems she has, she consulted me and I will be there to give my expertise advice.

Maybe this is what true love is, someone to be there regardless of whether you two are together - someone to guide, shield and depend. Jerry, the woman’s men, said that I am wasting too much time on a single girl.

I should have just pop the question and leave the thinking to her, after all life is too short to spend on one person. But the urge to reveal my feeling hasn’t reached to such stage for desperation yet.

Maybe next time I would, but when is the right time? ‘Cloud. I have something to ask you.’ Oh no, not again? ‘What do you think of me?.’ Oh ! , peer evaluating time!

Even though I speak easily to myself, when it comes to expressing to HER, I am score an F9 for it. ‘Cute? And you are a very good friend of mine.’ ‘That all?.’ What do you mean that’s all?

Oh dear, I have to say something that she wants to hear or forever I will be condemn in her eyes. Noooooooo… I decide to avoid the question using my avoidance tactics.

‘There is a lot of things in my heart that I feel about you, but in this short span of time, I can’t express it out. But regardless of what is it, I want to let you know that treasure you a lot.’

Phew, lucky thing I manage to come out with this marvelous sentence. It seemed that after the episode of knowing her, I am beginning to learn the trades of using words.

I didn’t know how to reply her smile and decide to leave it until she reply me with something else. Five minutes went by and I am starting ponder whether I should reply anything. ~to be continue~

• That angelic gal ~ Part 5
• That angelic gal ~ Part 7
• That angelic gal ~ Part 6
• That angelic gal ~ Part 3
• That angelic gal ~ Part 2