March 2, 2007 at 10:44 am
I want to cry…
How much I am fed up with this endless routine! I am tired of pulling a smile on my face daily, whereas my soul is crying because of weariness.
I am tired to bear those whom I cannot bear. I am tired of my chronic fatigue.
I am tired of being strong. I am tired of lying to myself and nourish myself with hopes. I am tired to justify others hopes.
Life is not a fairy tale, why do I keep on believing in it? I am tired of struggling with myself and those around me. I want to be alone. Simply to stay alone for some time.
Routine eats me up. I begin to feel myself a shallow person. I am tired of being strong, but don’t wish to be weak.
Contradiction. And I don’t know how to find out the solution. My God! Now I want to cry at everybody indiscriminately! …
How I wish to come to depth of a forest, to lean against a powerful tree, to turn out to be under heavy shower and simply to cry out.
Alone… That no one could see me.
How strange it happens in life - that what gave you a complete happiness, in time may give you deep sorrow.
I feel this way recently, I want to pull this out of my heart, but fail… Hope time will heal me, and I will return to my previous rhythm of life…
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