December 27, 2007 at 9:40 am
-Un believeable-
How much I am fed up with this endless routine! I am tired of pulling a smile on my face daily, whereas my soul is crying because of weariness.
I am tired to bear those whom I cannot bear. I am tired of my chronic fatigue.
I am tired of being strong. I am tired of lying to myself and nourish myself with hopes. I am tired to justify others hopes.
Life is not a fairy tale, why do I keep on believing in it? I am tired of struggling with myself and those around me. I want to be alone. Simply to stay alone for some time.
Routine eats me up. I begin to feel myself a shallow person. I am tired of being strong, but don’t wish to be weak.
Contradiction. And I don’t know how to find out the solution. My God! Now I want to cry at everybody indiscriminately! …
How I wish to come to depth of a forest, to lean against a powerful tree, to turn out to be under heavy shower and simply to cry out.
Alone… That no one could see me.
How strange it happens in life - that what gave you a complete happiness, in time may give you deep sorrow.
I feel this way recently, I want to pull this out of my heart, but fail… Hope time will heal me, and Haz will return to her previous rhythm of life…
hey there Eeleen, long time no visit here, how have you been? whatever you’re feeling, you’re not alone. so cheer up soon k? take care and have a happy new year!
hugs! View all comments by _butt
alohaA…actualy i dnt knw u..and 4 sure u dnt knw me 2..i wnt u 2 b one of my friend..k lang? ahm dnt b sad, life must go on..just believe in Him tc owiez mwhuah View all comments by lady_funk